Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Speaking the Words of Your Dreams: On Being Honest With Myself About Changing Careers
This blog has been such a journey of learning to speak the words of my dreams. It strikes me that even the choice of the name, Welcoming Spirit, was the open invitation for change and love and spirit to enter my life after my divorce eight years ago. And since then, I've been intentionally changing my words, following love, choosing love, following my dreams.
My "Ten in Three" is the continuation of following those dreams, dreams I didn't know I even had eight yeas ago.
What's interesting as well is that if I'm being super honest, if I'm embracing the person I know I want to become, it truly means leaving a few things behind. One of those is my career as a Project Manager.
I'm going to admit that it's not easy to consider that role, that title, that part of me, and say "Thank you, I've enjoyed being a project manager, but it's time for us to part ways, time for me to go follow another dream." It's not easy, but I'm seeing that I'm ready to do that. To Welcome Spirit again, to move on to the next dream.
And it's even harder to admit that maybe, just maybe, one of those "Ten in Three" items is something that I don't even want to complete. But here it goes.
I no longer care about getting PMP Certified. If I'm being honest, I don't know that I EVER cared that much about it, but it did seem very much like something I "should" do. Something good project managers do.
Get this: In some late night soul searching, I realized PMP Certification was something a friend of my ex-husband used to talk about a lot. I had placed getting Certified on my "bucket list" (in the days before anyone called them that) over eight years ago, and I recognize now that it was likely part of my chasing down a romanticized version of myself, one that I thought might fit in better with my ex-husband, with his family. In those days, I got caught up in a lot of "if I just..." thinking.
In other words, I was a dream that wasn't mine, and it was something that had become such a fixture on my bucket list that I'd never reconsidered it.
This realization put a ton of pieces together for me. My resistance to studying, my inability to focus when I do study for the exam, none of this is "like" me at all. On the other hand, I can spend hours working on blog and retreat stuff every day. My soul ignites when I study anything related to life coaching and mentoring. I lose all track of time. It is all that I want to do.
For me, it's pointing to the fact that I'm beyond ready to make a change. To work towards another dream that is exciting, full of love and compassion and courage and life. It's so close to some of the work I've done leading retreats, and yet it's something entirely new.
And so again, I'm changing my words, speaking of who I WANT to become. Not the words of fear and failure. And this is going to be freaking amazing.
"If you want to change your life, begin by changing your words. Start speaking the words of your dreams, of who want to become, not the words of fear and failure". - Robert Kiyosaki